Turning 20 - A W E S O M E


06 May 2009 - Combined mini birthday celebration for May babies in P06! Freaking awesome brownies, courtesy of Miss Fiza's sister :)


17 May 2009 - I met these darlings, my primary school girlfriends, for an ice skating date followed by dinner. I was happily yakking and yakking, telling them stories, not realising why they were so quiet with their hands on paper bags! Amalina bought a small cake for each of us and I received a photo album with a picture of us, bangles and handwritten poems in side. Remember things like, Roses are red, Violets are blue. I have a friend, my friend is you! and many others! I was honestly very touched, thank you girls for the effort (:


22 May 2009 - I don't have photos of this day. I had a date with these girls for dinner @ Orchard. I met Deena, walked towards Taka and found Fadilah sitting down with all kinds of things (really, all kinds) to surprise me. I didn't expect it at all because I was just too excited to meet them because we have been busy and did not have time to catch up. I was touched by this too because Fadilah started on her crazy attachment work and Deena's been teaching - time's really precious. So thank you to you two, for taking the time despite the crazy, crazy schedule.


29 May 2009 - My newfound friends in Ngee Ann Polytechnic. One week before this day, my friends kept reminding me to come to school on 29 May 2009 for some 'quiz' (I have a habit of waking up late on Friday mornings because I'm too tired or I will fall ill and take MC or... any other excuses). I went to sleep the previous night telling myself I will not miss school but I woke up late! I only made it to school at 11pm for our Foundations Of Nursing lecture conducted by Mdm Aw (the lady hugging me). For some reason, she was rushing through the lecture (well, I felt that way) and I was wondering how come we didn't have a break after 1hour. When she was done with the lecture, she switched off the lights, telling us we would be watching a video. That was when Suhana and Shirah came in with a birthday cake! They had disappeared from lecture, giving me the idea they went for toilet break. I was stoned and then shocked and then I screamed. Thank you all of you who were involved in this (haha) and for the La Senza PJ and teddy bear from Mdm Aw :D


29/30 May 2009 - I spent the night before my birthday Zouk with the usuals and other people. Intention was just to chill and have fun. I don't normally take pictures in club, the picture above was taken on another day. Thank you RT for coming along just because I used my 'trump card' by saying Saturday's my birthday haha! And to those of you who treated me drinks :)



30 May 2009 - I don't have photos of this day but this picture sums up the people involved. Fareez brought me out to Mind Cafe @ Boat Quay. I was looking through the lunch menu while he went to select some board games. When I turned to my right, I saw Deena and Sufi at the entrance and my initial reaction was, 'OMG FAREEZ, LOOK THEY ARE HERE! WE CAN PLAY GAMES TOGETHER!' and it took me 5 seconds later to realise why they were there. We had Nutella cake courtesy of Deena and Sufi, played games for close to 4hours before saying our goodbyes. Fareez and I had our dinner at Breeks before setting off to a Jazz cafe @ Haji Lane. Awesome shit from Wicked Aura Battucada. I received a thoughtful gift (a thumbdrive, since I lost mine) and a handmade photoalbum from Fareez.

 

06 June 2009 - A picnic planned by Farhana at Hort Park. Freaking hot weather, updates and gossips, food, Monopoly, lots of photos. Again, I don't know where the birthday cake came from but yes, I was surprised. I thought it was a catch up session and nothing else. Love the cake and I think I'll just keep buying that same mango cake whenever I have the craving. Ice-cream after Hort Park and more gossips! Thank you Farhana for cooking and the cake, Nad and Idz for the time! :)

Thanks for all the birthday wishes too. To those who wished me through sms, I'm so sorry that I had to ask for your name because I lost my phone twice in May and did not have all my old contacts.

I'll either post pictures randomly on my journal or on Facebook. I did this entry to distract myself from revision for abit, time to go back to the books! Been years since I took exams man.

Till the next time!

I used to think that I was a procrastinator. My love for running away manifests in several ways - unfortunately even when it comes to work and school. No, wait, I shouldn't be using the word unfortunately. It may be unfortunate for others but not for myself.

You know how teachers brainwash you by saying that you should never do last minute work, you should be a good and conscientious student? For as long as I remember, I've heard the same thing again and again ever since I was young. So I tried. I tried so damn hard to do my work early, to start early, to do everything early so that I will not have to burn midnight oil.

Well, we all know that nothing is one size fits all. Yet we still try to fit in, just because we were told to. The effect of being told the same thing again and again eventually landed me in eternal frustration because I could never do it. It took me all these years to realise that I was just not born to work that way.

Let's see. People say you're a good student when you start on your assignment early so that you don't have to rush and produce crap work. People say you have to start revision early so that you don't have to cram everything into your brain in a short period of time. Yet when I try to start my work early, no ideas come to me. When I try to study early, I don't absorb anything. Well, because it is my nature to run away from problems, from anything until lack of time induces urgency in me. But because I've been told all my life that a 'good student' doesn't do last minute work, I thought I was not normal, I thought I was a severe procrastinator.

So now, after almost 20 years of being alive, I realise that it is okay to do last minute work if it works for you, it is okay to do last minute revision if it works for you. It only becomes a problem if it creates trouble. And I am sorry if it troubles you, that I thrive and produce results under stress. Just to add a pinch of bitchiness, I still produce better work which was done 15minutes before the deadline than yours which was done 15 days before deadline.

I'm just trying to say - screw conformity.

10 years went by and yet I still feel like I'm 10.

I wish you were here to see the person I've become today.

I miss you Dad.

Afterall, life is absurd. And there's nothing wrong with absurdity. As said by Voltaire, doubt is not a pleasant condition but certainty is absurd.

I had a long day yesterday. Work till night, didn't sleep throughout the night, took bus from Clementi to Sengkang this morning and I am going to work in about 15minutes. Managed to catch a 55minutes nap on the bus just now. When I woke up, I was hit with a familar realization which I have yet to understand or comprehend fully - manifestations of insecurity, the three words that came to my mind when I woke up.

Anyway, I'm a closet bookworm. So now that I am attending school, I get to access the library every single day but I have no time to read. Haha. But anyway, I managed to finish a book in one day and again, it's from my favourite author Paulo Coelho :D

 

 

Bryan Adams

As you already know. I cannot leave my hair alone. From gold with blonde highlights, I survived with the black roots. Did some touch up to the roots and went all yellow. Today I went to get it done black and red.

( When will I stop this habit? )

 Ideas always come at the weirdest times and sometimes at a pace which is too fast for me!

Sometimes it's our very own emotions that cause us friction with ourselves.
And it is not easy to shuck that uneasiness away.

Honestly? I miss the hospital!
(Minus the disgusting food)

I went into SGH A&E department on Thursday noon and discharged yesterday. I was diagnosed with acute appendicitis but after the operation, retrograde menstruation was my primary diagnosis - they found menstruation blood in my ovaries and stomach cavity, so they had to clean that up. Seems like my menstruation blood went against gravity. I was going to post up pictures but I think not everybody shares my enthusiasm when it comes to hospitals, wounds and the human body, haha.

Thank you to everyone who visited me and made me laugh like crazy. Wonderful doctors and nurses who were joking around in the OT even when I was going to take in the general anesthesia, the consultant who said the cedar cheer while checking my tummy when he heard I was from Cedar and the doctor from the surgery department who made fun of Saints because 'I was from Raffles rugby, so yeah, I hate Saints. Sorry ah I very high, work for 34hours already.'

 

:)

Yes, yes. I cannot leave my hair alone. I was on my way to the clinic today but the doctor was on call so I had 1hour to spare. Kak Hanie said we should bring my little niece to the nearest goldsmith to get her ears pierced. On the way to the goldsmith, she showed me the unisex salon where she did her hair for $200 (digital perm, colour, highlight, treatment) and her hair.. butt-length? The crazy woman went inside, asked how much it would cost to colour and highlight my hair and then she made me sit down, knowing how much I wanted to colour and highlight my hair so badly in JB the other day when I permed my hair.

( So, yes, I did something to my hair again )

I shall not complain about the quality because I paid $60 for it. I was rather scared about my hair because I was in the hands of 4 AUNTIES who don't speak English, but they were nice. I felt like a guinea pig because they took turns to look at the outcome of their work when my hair was done. The salon is not recommended for fussies. No fancy chairs, no aircon. You can even find chicken bone on the floor on the way to get your hair washed if your eyes are sharp enough. I'm not some mother fucking rich kid but I love thrills. Cheap thrills :D

Goodbye to my brown, straight hair. Stupid me TRIED to dye my hair black one night (at 4am) and decided to head to a salon the next day (which is.. a couple of hours after I dyed my hair black actually) to do something to my hair. I couldn't colour nor hightlight due to my stupidity, rebonding was out of the question, digital perm was too girly. So I did spiral perm. Inspiration came from telephone cord that was dangling from the hair stylist's table while he was talking to me, thank you very much.





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