trivialie (![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif){kind=small} trivialie) wrote,@ 2009-05-27 03:34:00 |
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330. Stress
I used to think that I was a procrastinator. My love for running away manifests in several ways - unfortunately even when it comes to work and school. No, wait, I shouldn't be using the word unfortunately. It may be unfortunate for others but not for myself.
You know how teachers brainwash you by saying that you should never do last minute work, you should be a good and conscientious student? For as long as I remember, I've heard the same thing again and again ever since I was young. So I tried. I tried so damn hard to do my work early, to start early, to do everything early so that I will not have to burn midnight oil.
Well, we all know that nothing is one size fits all. Yet we still try to fit in, just because we were told to. The effect of being told the same thing again and again eventually landed me in eternal frustration because I could never do it. It took me all these years to realise that I was just not born to work that way.
Let's see. People say you're a good student when you start on your assignment early so that you don't have to rush and produce crap work. People say you have to start revision early so that you don't have to cram everything into your brain in a short period of time. Yet when I try to start my work early, no ideas come to me. When I try to study early, I don't absorb anything. Well, because it is my nature to run away from problems, from anything until lack of time induces urgency in me. But because I've been told all my life that a 'good student' doesn't do last minute work, I thought I was not normal, I thought I was a severe procrastinator.
So now, after almost 20 years of being alive, I realise that it is okay to do last minute work if it works for you, it is okay to do last minute revision if it works for you. It only becomes a problem if it creates trouble. And I am sorry if it troubles you, that I thrive and produce results under stress. Just to add a pinch of bitchiness, I still produce better work which was done 15minutes before the deadline than yours which was done 15 days before deadline.
I'm just trying to say - screw conformity.
I used to think that I was a procrastinator. My love for running away manifests in several ways - unfortunately even when it comes to work and school. No, wait, I shouldn't be using the word unfortunately. It may be unfortunate for others but not for myself.
You know how teachers brainwash you by saying that you should never do last minute work, you should be a good and conscientious student? For as long as I remember, I've heard the same thing again and again ever since I was young. So I tried. I tried so damn hard to do my work early, to start early, to do everything early so that I will not have to burn midnight oil.
Well, we all know that nothing is one size fits all. Yet we still try to fit in, just because we were told to. The effect of being told the same thing again and again eventually landed me in eternal frustration because I could never do it. It took me all these years to realise that I was just not born to work that way.
Let's see. People say you're a good student when you start on your assignment early so that you don't have to rush and produce crap work. People say you have to start revision early so that you don't have to cram everything into your brain in a short period of time. Yet when I try to start my work early, no ideas come to me. When I try to study early, I don't absorb anything. Well, because it is my nature to run away from problems, from anything until lack of time induces urgency in me. But because I've been told all my life that a 'good student' doesn't do last minute work, I thought I was not normal, I thought I was a severe procrastinator.
So now, after almost 20 years of being alive, I realise that it is okay to do last minute work if it works for you, it is okay to do last minute revision if it works for you. It only becomes a problem if it creates trouble. And I am sorry if it troubles you, that I thrive and produce results under stress. Just to add a pinch of bitchiness, I still produce better work which was done 15minutes before the deadline than yours which was done 15 days before deadline.
I'm just trying to say - screw conformity.
